So at the risk of going into sharing “too much information” and what some may consider a personal matter…I want to share some interesting facts about GCS (Gender Confirmation Surgery) that you may or may not know.
After my surgery, I went through a period of time where I was worried about how I would function sexually and how my vagina would look and feel to me. Its major surgery so there are no guarantees.
When I first got out of surgery I was in a tremendous amount of pain. I had a catheter in me and I was packed with gauze. Morphine, and later Hydrocodone, took care of the pain, but there was still the worry about “How is this going to work out!”
The packing and catheter were removed after a few days and the real “work” began. Once I was able to, I had to dilate my vagina (A trans woman’s vagina is called a neo vagina…meaning a new vagina).
That entails using medical grade devices, similar to smooth dildos, three times a day to prevent my body from healing and closing shut. There are 4 sizes of dilators, progressing in width as you go.
If you don’t dilate, you end up with a pee hole which can’t function in any sexual way…so its critical to do it if you actually want a functional vagina.
So now that I’m 7 months post surgery, I only have to dilate once a day. I will have to keep doing that for the rest of my life or risk losing depth and width….which I won’t allow to happen!
I discovered a few other things after I healed sufficiently:
1. I can orgasm. (I can’t even begin to describe how absolutely wonderful it is to climax as a woman but if you are in transition and considering surgery, believe me when I tell you its everything you can imagine it would be!)
2. Physically, my vagina is indistinguishable from that of a CIS woman. I am super critical of my body so THAT was really important to me! The first time my GP examined me after surgery she said, “Oh my God Toni, that’s wonderful!”…which made me do a happy dance…lol!
3. I discovered that they don’t remove the erectile tissue. Which translates into an erect clitoris whenever I’m aroused. The same thing happens to CIS women when they are sexually aroused so its as normal as can be. Its also amazing when it happens when I’m out and about and its spontaneous. Suffice it to say I find myself crossing my legs and smiling a lot!
4. I have no testosterone….I mean zero! So that’s expected since the testicles are removed during surgery. The problem is that CIS women produce a small amount of testosterone naturally…and post surgical trans women don’t. Testosterone is necessary, albeit in a small amount, to maintain energy and a healthy balance so I use a prescription T cream daily to supplement that. My hormone regiment is an IM estradiol injection every two weeks and the cream daily…for the rest of my life.
There’s so much more to the surgery and the follow up that I could literally write a book on my personal experience but I hope that at least some of this information helps other trans women understand another woman’s experience with surgery.
Huge hugs and always look forward. The past is already in your rearview mirror.
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